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Today

05 October 2011

I few years back, I heard a song about someone who loses a loved one. I liked it then. After Jane's passing, I remembered the song and tried to find it again. I only remembered one line of the lyrics but I emailed a DJ of a podcast where I *thought* heard it first. The man came back to me within minutes to give me all the details I needed. He said he would never forget that song. And neither will I now.

Here it is. It is pretty emotional. I was in tears when hearing it again. It is called "Today" by Rebecca Blackman.


Turn the light out
Leave the door
Like you're a small child again
This could be the last time
I say
See you in the morning
And you hear me walk downstairs

The TV's on
But I'm not listening
To the blurred stream of words
The newsreader's talking but
She doesn't know
What happened today

She hasn't been at the hospital
Waiting around
For results you don't want to hear
She didn't wake up forgetting
Them remember it wasn't a dream

Everyone's smiling
The sun's out
The weather's hot
I'm just trying to keep it together
So what about sandals and BBQ's
I really don't care

The TV's on but I'm not listening
To the blurred stream of words
The newsreader's reading news
But she don't know
What happened today

She hasn't been cancelling holidays
For three
Maybe two
She hasn't swallowed a lump in her throat
She didn't wake up forgetting
Then remember it all again

Settle down
I'll tuck you in
That's all I can do for now
I'll turn the light out
Leave the door


Be there a potion to drink
I'd make it for you
A dance that would heal
I'd dance
I can't help my jealousy
I don't like it
But it's there
They don't know what's been happening today

They haven't been at your bedside
Stroking your face
They haven't been there with you
Squeezing their hand
They didn't wake up forgetting
And for a second feel fine

They don't know what really happened today

You can listen to the song here: Rebecca Blackman

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